The little thing called Epilepsy.

I thought that the shock and fear I felt when diagnosed with Epilepsy would be as bad as it gets, it isn’t! Since the seizure I had 3 weeks or so ago I appear to be frozen with a kind of fear. I only feel safe at home, I don’t want to go anywhere alone and even going out with others makes me a little anxious? I have pinpointed the reason for being anxious taking the dogs out, that is I worry someone will harm Hamish in order to help me as he is nervous but protective of me and will growl and bark. Going far from home I also worry that I could be taken advantage of during a seizure as I have heard of people filming seizures and putting them on Youtube for “a laugh” but I mostly worry about being robbed during a seizure as I have heard of this happening. The one thing I can’t understand is why I should be anxious going out with family or friends? I can only think I am worried that I might be an embarrassment to them or maybe myself? I can’t wait for things to return to normal as it did after being diagnosed. I have been searching for support groups for people with Epilepsy but there isn’t one in my area? I can’t go to the next county as I can never be sure when I am going to have to stop driving again as I have at the moment. It would be really helpful to meet others in the same position and learn from their experiences.

MS isn’t too bad, I am getting used to my carbon fibre leg braces which has reduced the number of falls that I have. I can still only wear them for about an hour at a time until my muscles and joints adapt to being held in a different position. Another big thank you to the NHS because I certainly couldn’t have afforded them myself, the off the shelf version cost Β£500 for each leg and mine are custom made so I dread to think what they cost?! I have finished with the physiotherapist after 3 months so I now have a programme of exercises to help with my core strength and balance, this should also help to reduce falls.

My dogs are keeping me sane although I am testing their sanity a bit, I have been watching the European championship football (soccer for all you non English people) and every time I get excited by a good goal or tackle the boys run around yapping. Indy learned to do this years ago when we still had Luca during the world cup and he has quickly taught Hamish to join in. πŸ™‚ The only problem is that when Hamish joins in Indy tells him off with a special Collie smile and a growl which make Hamish stop, Indy then yaps again so Hamish joins in and round and round it goes until I wet myself laughing.



The handsome Tommy is hoping to find a loving home for his later years. He is estimated to be 12 years old, perhaps a little more.

He is a very sweet boy, who likes cuddles and relaxing in the sunshine. He is an older gentleman so is looking for a relaxed home and will not need a very active lifestyle. Gentle walks and plenty of love will do just fine for him.

Tommy was rescued together with Aslan and Angelika 2 years ago. They were all in dire straight and starving at the edge of a forest. Tommy is a quiet and gentle boy and we hope a wonderful family will come forward to give him some home comfort.

As TommyΒ is a little bit older, Love Underdogs will offer his forever family an option to have vet fee support, as it will be difficult to get him insured. Details of this offer will be explained to interested families.





To adopt Tommy or any of the other beauties at Love Underdogs visit the website for details.


About Mick C Gorman

Slightly damaged old bloke who is plodding on with more than a little help from a great wife. I have been married for 36 years and have 2 grown up children. I did the usual thing and replaced children with dogs when the nest became empty, best thing I ever did (apart from getting married of course). Life has taken a few interesting turns so far but this Epilepsy thing beats the lot! I love lots of things but in the past have never really stuck with them long enough to be good at them, I am trying harder to be better at a few things rather than okay at loads of things. There is still plenty of time. :-D
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14 Responses to The little thing called Epilepsy.

  1. It may be time to chill out with some surf music.

  2. Hi Mick, What came first Epilepsy or MS? Where are you based and what support networks have you tried?

    • Hello.
      MS came first, I have had that since 1994 the Epilepsy was diagnosed in 2012.
      I am in Northamptonshire, I have tried the Epilepsy society and Epilepsy action. I am making do with online forums at the moment.

  3. leggypeggy says:

    Tommy is gorgeous. Beautiful face and beautiful coat.

    Hope your anxiety about going out subsides, especially when with family and friends. I remember seeing a young man have an epilepsy seizure in the bus station in Dublin. I was so impressed by how the crowd reacted and the caring support he received. Someone in the crowd must have known what they were doing.

  4. donnyjean says:

    Best wishes to you. You are a very strong and brave soul, managing with your illness etc. Pat yourself on your back for how you cope and what you do with the dogs. Keep on keeping on….from New Zealand.

    • You are very kind.
      I am probably just being a bit of a cry baby because I am feeling a bit sorry for myself. πŸ™‚
      Normal service will soon be resumed. πŸ˜€

  5. I can understand the fear of leaving your home. I don’t have physical illnesses, but my mental makes it hard to go to new places.
    I’m sure you’ve looked for online support.. that would be my suggestion.
    Tommy is a cutie!

    • I am making use of online forums at the moment, it is better than nothing which is what people in the past would have had.
      Tommy is my ideal foster dog, if only I could get to the kennels to get him. 😦

  6. annelritchie says:

    Mick, I can’t imagine what it must be like to have those fearful thoughts running through your head. Epilepsy is a curious a disease and the random seizures would frighten me as well. Your kind heart and love for your animals are such wonderful characteristics that I have to believe the almighty will keep you safe in your activities. Living in fear is not living. Trust that you will find kindness in any accident you may have. I read where if you are depressed you are in the past and anxiousness is worry for the future. Stay in today and you will find peace. xo

    • Thank you for your comment.
      I know I will return to normal soon, I always do. It is very odd having what might happen control my life? Just another thing to get used to. πŸ™‚

  7. wfdec says:

    Hey Mick, I can understand how you might fear for your dog if it is so protective. With your experience, would it be possible to teach the dog that in some circumstances – such as a seizure – he has to stand back and let someone help? I don’t know. However I really wish you all the best from here in Oz.

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