My brother Derek died 2 years ago today, it’s going to be a difficult day. The early days after Derek’s death passed in a blur and the months that followed were filled with other episodes which kept my brain busy so I didn’t sit and think. I expected the grief to ease as time went on but it is actually getting worse, the last couple of months have been the worst of all. I think the problem is that Derek loved Christmas, he would start shopping for people a few months ahead and was like a child getting excited as Christmas got closer, not because he was getting presents but because he was giving them. He was one of life’s givers. I haven’t yet opened the gift he bought me the week he died, I was planning on doing so last year but I just couldn’t do it, maybe this year?
It feels strange to now be older than he will ever be, he was 18 months older than me and when we were kids would always say that I could do or have certain things when I was as old as him knowing I never would be, if only that were so!
I still think about my bro every day and miss him terribly I just hope that in time the happy memories replace the sad and empty feeling of now.
Asta has been at Love Underdogs for a year now and is looking for a home of her own, she is a beautiful fun loving dog who just needs a family.