I touched on this once before but I have been pondering this a lot just lately.
When I was diagnosed with MS in 1994 I still felt like the same person I had always been, I waddled a bit, fell over, dropped things and sometimes couldn’t see straight but I was me. When I returned to England I joined the MS society but quickly stopped going to meetings because they referred to me as a patient! I wasn’t a patient, I was just me.
I noticed when walking around using crutches the odd funny look, mostly from older people? as if they were trying to work out what was wrong with me? Then I started to notice that people close to me were treating me differently. I wasn’t asked to help with things that I had always done before, I wasn’t asked for my opinion very often and very little was expected of me. I was becoming less me!
Now that I have Epilepsy I think I have stopped being me. I don’t work, I no longer do DIY and people rarely visit! I think I am becoming invisible.
The worst part about being the non me is, the way other people don’t see me now, I don’t see me in the future. Having no vision of a future is very unnerving, I have never had great ambitions but I have always had some kind of plan for a future. Did I just give in and accept other peoples view of me or did my illnesses and the accompanying drugs take away the essence of me?
Maybe I spend too much time thinking and not enough time doing? I did try to do something a couple of days ago but it ended with me badly burning my finger with a hot air gun. Oh well, at least that means that I am still a plonker. 😀
On the bright side, spring has sprung. The temperatures are creeping up and the big yellow circle in the sky is shining. 🙂
The Wiccaweys dog today is Rocky who is 3 years old.
Rocky has come to us from our volunteers in Eire.
He was saved from a pound.
Rocky is a very friendly and happy lad. He loves a fuss and is great with other dogs. He travels well. A really nice all round family dog. Are you the folks to make his dreams come true?